Essential Operations in Transformational Alchemy

The essential operations in transformational alchemy lift us from concretized belief and behavior, burn off excess ego and inaccurate and imprisoning beliefs, submerge us in the watery depths of authentic emotion until we accept our essential feeling nature, and dismember us until we surrender to our Soul’s purpose. This inner work requires courage because it’s always easier to remain unaware of our deeper aspects that seem to hover, shadow-like and terrifying, in the recesses of our minds. Many of us tend to believe that personal healing consists of “getting rid of” our problems, but that’s like trying to throw them out the door only to watch them fly back in through the window. We can’t get rid of any aspect of ourselves, especially the ego. We can only transform it.

This is a quote from my most recent book, “Your Inner Gold: Transform Your Life and Discover Your Soul’s Purpose”, available online through my website at or your local bookstore.

Aging + Dying

Moving closer to my 70th birthday this August, I’ve been reexamining my beliefs about life and death, what my fears are, and what I want with this last part of my life as a Full Elder – or Crone. Over the past few months, I’ve moved through most of my feelings about appearance and needing to do things differently, whether more gently or expanding them. While reading Sue Monk Kidd’s book, “Traveling with Pomegranates”, some of what she says about her own feelings on aging and death were uncomfortably familiar to me. I began focusing on being in the present moment and accepting the stage of life I’m in as well as reviewing all my previous stages but now with the eyes of an Elder. But there were still those lingering concerns and fears about dying: when, how, where, how will my family respond to my passing, etc. I began to review each of those fears and saw clearly how much I was futurizing and “past-urizing” and not just being here now. A blessed shift arrived yesterday in meditation when I suddenly heard from within: “It will be what it will be.” I felt something run through my entire being like fresh water being poured into and then out of me. I felt a complete freedom from fear of aging and dying, no longer caught in the web of worry and imagining negative scenarios. I don’t know when or how I will die, but now I believe it will be perfect.

Judgment + Comparison

Last night in our women’s spiritual group, we were exploring how judgment and comparison create blocks to awareness and progressive growth of the Soul. These are generally learned and are not a natural part of beingness, so we can learn to release the judging and comparing habits that cloud our perceptions of what’s real. They are fear-based and produce beliefs in duality – you’re separate from me and I’m certainly not a part of you, etc. In a consciousness of non-duality, we know we are a part of everything and everyone everywhere. Our group loves to close our circle by honoring each other with a Mayan blessing: “Inlakesh”, which means “I am another you, and you are another me.” This blessing is powerful if used regularly because it releases the sense of separation and draws us into knowing and feeling the Spirit that resides within all.


I so appreciate Jane Beach’s contributions and inspirations. And reading her post today about fear, I’d like to add what I’ve learned about how the media contributes greatly to collective fear. Having worked with people as a spiritual teacher for many years, I’ve learned that most of us tend to believe that our fears are our own and that we have to do deep psychological processes to overcome them. I agree that some of our fears are indeed our own, but we are all sensitive, even if we don’t know it, so are affected profoundly by the constant barrage of bad news and fear-inducing predictions by newscasters. Since I work a lot with imagery, I know its power and to watch an hour or more of negative images winding their way into our minds is not healthy! We tend to think of newspeople as authorities, when in fact, we are our own authority – as in the root word, “author” – we are the authors of our own lives by our thinking, beliefs, and attitudes. And no newscaster has any authority or power over that unless we give it to them. Maybe we can think about where we got that idea that they know more than we do – maybe it came from our early training to mind our elders, who may give us wise counsel or may just be parroting what the collective consciousness has accepted as truth, rather than Truth. From higher, spiritual levels, we can resource the Truth and sense the underlying reasons the nightly news presents what it does – and then we can gently laugh, bless them all, and let it go. I, for one, stopped watching and listening to news years ago and it’s very interesting how I still know what’s going on but it doesn’t dig its way into me as fear.

Creating Our Realities

As I was meditating this a.m., I became aware that we not only create our personal realities by our beliefs, thinking, and attitudes, but we create our own perceptions of the entire multiverse. When I was young, I would lie in bed and imagine that I was creating everything and everyone in my experience. As a teen, I discovered Emmanuel Kant’s theory of solipsistic reality that I believed confirmed my childhood imaginings. But as I’ve moved into Elderhood, I now believe it’s all possible. From a mystical standpoint, we actually do create our own realities, personal and multiversal, but the key is to stay centered in the heart where we know all is real on multiple levels. So, as the Mayan greeting (“Inlakesh”) says, “You are another me, and I am another you.” Many blessings as you journey on your day.


On this celebration of fatherhood, I give thanks to my dad, who crossed over in 1987 but still comes to me to assist in various ways, especially with my writing – go figure – he was an aeronautical engineer but very much into space and its potentials (helped to design the space shuttle). He used to have a recurring dream where he was navigating a flyer saucer by passing his hands over crystals! I also give thanks to my “wasband” (former husband) for having been my friend since 9th grade and being a father to our two daughters. When I consider the cosmic significance of fathers and mothers, and the task of balancing our inner masculine and feminine, I’m moved to looking at how we manifest as Spirit on Earth, no matter what gender, with the task of doing it consciously. What a gift we have in Life!

Transforming Negative Beliefs

In “Creative Mind and Success”, Ernest Holmes says “Words and affirmations simply give shape to thought; they are not creative. Feeling is creative and the more feeling that is put into the word the more power it will have….” I believe that anything that stirs strong feelings, such as the media or organizations that thrive on spreading fear, creates negative thoughts, which we then turn into belief. This is why I don’t listen to or read the news or subscribe to any ideas that contribute to collective negative beliefs and fear. Conversely, anything or anyone who sees beyond fear to what is a true spiritually-grounded reality, can radiate positive thoughts, beliefs, and ideas to the collective, bringing it into closer alignment with what life is meant to be.

Apocalypse as Transforming

Wikipedia says: “An apocalypse (Ancient Greek: ἀποκάλυψις apocálypsis, from ἀπό and καλύπτω meaning ‘un-covering’), translated literally from Greek refers to a revelation of something hidden, although this sense did not enter English until the 14th century.[1] In religious contexts it is usually a revelation of hidden meaning – hidden from human knowledge in an era dominated by falsehood and misconception.” There has always been a global fear of this but the actual, deep reason for this is that we are frightened to know our own inner, deep secrets, ones that would require us to make changes that our ego selves don’t want us to make. So we project our inner fears outward and remain in fear of a global disaster (usually presented by some organized religions as punishment by a wrathful god) when in truth, what we truly fear is what’s inside of us – and 99% of the time, we misinterpret what’s inside as something negative, when it’s actually something very powerful and life-affirming – something that can take us to a higher level of understanding and Soul growth.All of us have personal apocalypses in our lives that we interpret as being bad – or that we’re bad in some way – when the “uncovering” is a veil over our magnificence! All of the mystical teachings remind us that the resolution of the fear of personal and global annihilation is the opening of the heart to unconditional Love.

Our Internal Thought Adjusters

After watching “The Adjustment Bureau” last night, I was inspired to review the sections in “The Urantia Book” about our internal thought adjusters. Some may call them our Souls, angels, spirit guides, our relations on the other side, etc. Considering how the choices we make are guided lovingly by forces so much greater than our personality selves, we can begin to work consciously with them. A good way to start is to review how many times we were guided away from potential harm – even death – and led onto avenues we might not have thought of walking ourselves. Another good practice is to observe how many times we think of ourselves as victims and contemplate how this belief builds walls against growth and Soul evolution. To move into new perceptions about what life gives us as lessons to strengthen us, we can begin to feel the Presence of Spirit in, around, and through us and all things. Once this becomes a habit, we’ll know we are a creation of that Spirit, not a separate afterthought. When we feel unified with It, there is nothing we can’t do! At the end of the movie, there is a voice-over that wraps it all up (I won’t tell you what it says – you’ll have to watch it to find out). This year we have been given profound gifts and opportunities for new expansion, along with the huge push into higher consciousness and loving kindness we’ll receive (if we’re willing) on Dec. 21. I send a radiance of love and blessings to you and all of life.